Pegnancy number one with my big girl Chloe all the way back in 2002!
Now that i am more than halfway through my current pregnancy and i keep saying that this is the easiest pregnancy yet and i don't even feel pregnant ( i really hope i do not regret saying that) i thought i would look back on my previous two pregnancy and birth's. So this post is all about my very first pregnancy with my eldest daughter Chloe all the way back in 2002 , twelve years ago! Appologies for the lack of photo's but i do not have any photo's as this was way before iphone's/ digital camera's and social media were about , my god that makes me sound so old!! so here goes......
I found out that i was pregnant all the way back in February 2002 when i was only 18 year's old and it was a massive shock! I had just broke up with my very first serious boyfriend after a on/off year together a few day's beforehand and i was due to start studying to be a nurse in a month's time and a baby defiantly was not planned as a part of my future anytime soon. I always thought that i would be like my parents and have children once i was older and was married and had a good job and nice house , not when i was a 18 year old single student living at home with my parent's.
I actually found out i was pregnant in the local Sainsbury's toilets with my friend Karen (aren't i just so classy) i was in total shock and i did not no what to do or think . The baby's dad did not want to no as far as he was concerned we had broke up and that was it i actually never seen him at all during my pregnancy and him and his family never brought a single thing for baby while i was pregnant.Luckily my parents were really helpful and supportive especially my amazing mum.
The first few week's of my pregnancy went by in a blur as i was still in shock . Then when i was 10 week's pregnant i started to bleed , i was convinced i had lost my baby. I felt like it was all my fault that i was going to lose my baby because i had not been happy about my pregnancy. Luckily an emergency scan the next day showed that baby was fine and from that moment on i fell in love with my little baby and i vowed to be the best mum that i could be and that my baby would have the best of everything , just because i was young and on my own i was not going let that hold my baby back in life.
My parent's had recently separated and i moved in with my mum and set about turning my bedroom into a beautiful lemon nursery, i was lucky enough to have savings (which was supposed to be for a car and driving lessons) but i went out and blew the lot on a mama's and papa's nursery , matching pine bedroom furniture and a wardrobe full of baby clothes, pram, car-seat and probably every baby product that you could buy i spent about £2500! which looking back now is absolutely crazy.
I knew nothing at all about baby's or pregnancy, so i spent all of my free time reading pregnancy book's and magazine's trying to find out and learn as much as i could.
At my 20 week scan they thought there was something wrong with baby's heart and i had to go back to hospital a week later to see a specialist to have another scan and thankfully everything was fine and normal but i didn't find out if baby was pink or blue i was having a surprise baby.
At around 16/17 week's i started feeling baby move about which was so strange and at about 20 week's i started to get a bump. My bump quickly got huge and everyone thought i was having twins, i actually put on 4 stone in pregnancy weight i was the size of a house! I craved snicker's and ice cold milk (i hate milk) from 20 week onwards my pregnancy started to get tough. I had really bad heartburn and i use to sleep with a bottle of gaviscon by my bed each night and i use to practically drink it. I struggled walking because i was just so huge, i even got a varicose vein in my leg (thankfully it went after i had given birth) most 18 year old's don't even no what a varicose vein is they are to busy having fun partying and there was me looking and feeling like a grandma.
Being pregnant so young was really tough, i was scared as everything was new to me and it was really hard coping with my changing body at such a young age. I also lost touch with most of my friend's as i couldn't do thing's a normal 18 year old could do like going clubbing, holiday's, dates and uni. I use to just sit at home every night watching the soaps and i felt so lonely and down about thing's and being a single parent as i had no one to share things with. I also felt that when i went to medical appointments the doctor's / midwife's etc would talk to my mum who came with me rather then to me even though i was the one who was pregnant. When i went to ante-natal classes it was all couple's and there was me there with my mum.
When i got to the third trimester my blood pressure started to get high, up until then i had been a low risk pregnancy under midwife led care but i started having to go to hospital every week so that baby could get monitored . In the last few week's of my pregnancy i was put on bed rest and the midwife use to come out to check my blood pressure at home a few time's a week and whenever it was high which was quiet often i would get sent to hospital to get checked out , but the hospital always sent me home again. I use to get so sick and wished they would just keep me in instead of having to go back and forth to hospital all the time.
I was upset and frustrated when my due date came and went, i thought i would be pregnant forever and never meet my baby. My blood pressure got higher and my hands and feet swelled right up and i was sent to see a consultant at the hospital when i was seven day's overdue. The consultant said i had pre-eclampsia and i had to go home get my hospital bag and come back to hospital that night and be induced .
I was so relieved my pregnancy was finally going to be over i had hated every minute of it and found it so hard. I was also very scared that i was going to lose my baby due to pre- eclampsia even though my mum had it with me and i was fine i had read so many horror stories about it and i was petrified.
I went into hospital that night but i was not actually induced until the next day and when i was eight day's overdue and after a four and a half hour induced labour i was a finally a mummy to a lovely healthy little girl weighing 8lb 3oz called Chloe Rose i loved her loads and she changed my life forever.