As bloggers we share so much of are lives online, we share are hopes and dreams and are feelings. However something that I have not really shared on this blog, or in fact very much in real life was that after the birth of my son seventeen months ago I have suffered from PND. I hid the fact that I was suffering for so long and just got on with things, I had no other option but to just carry on as I have three children to care for. I didn't want people to know about it to be honest as it was something I did not want to face up to and talk about.
I was in denial for a long time that anything was wrong, it took months and months for me to open up and admit that actually I was not coping and that I was so unhappy. Looking back now I think that I started feeling depressed pretty much straight away after Jacob's birth, I felt out of my depth with three children especially with my youngest two only being 14 months apart. Jacob was such a demanding baby screaming non stop from the moment he woke until the moment he slept due to colic and reflux, he also use to wake every hour during the night. I was exhausted and I felt isolated and alone stuck at home all day every day with two small children.